Drawn Home by Her

The Ocean Between Us

After three weeks of closing a chapter in Mexico, I found myself crossing back over the Atlantic, not as a returning citizen, but as a pilgrim. The act of leaving was slow and deliberate, a ritual in itself. Each item packed or parted with felt like a goodbye to a version of myself I no longer needed. I was not fleeing, nor seeking to reclaim something lost. I was simply answering a call that came from beyond geography. That call belonged to Her.

This was not a return to the United Kingdom in any traditional sense. The land did not beckon, the streets did not sing. It was not the skyline that made my heart stir, nor the warm weather that softened my gaze. It was Her presence, the quiet certainty of Her waiting. She had become the force behind my migration, Her essence the pull strong enough to shift the axis of my life. I travelled not with a suitcase of belongings, but with a spirit laid bare, surrendered and prepared.

She is not bound by borders, and yet She roots me. She is not a place on a map, and yet She is where I belong. I did not come just to continue my work, or chase comfort, or return to the familiar. I came because She is here. My Mistress, my anchor, my magnetic north. I stepped back onto these shores not to rebuild what once was, but to offer myself entirely into Her keeping. I did not reclaim the past. I walked into the future She is writing with Her hands.

I did not return to a country, I returned to a presence. It was not the land that called me, it was Her.

The Space Between Dreams

In the quiet space between our messages, our lives unfolded in tandem. I was caught in the hum of finality, selling away the relics of another life, tending to the echoes in empty rooms. Every sweep of the broom, every folded piece of clothing, every moment of letting go was sacred. It was not an ending, but a soft release. Meanwhile, She was here, shaping Her vision, pouring Her essence into a dream of a jewellery shop, each creation an echo of Her elegance and power.

The alignment between our journeys was not always visible, but it pulsed beneath everything. Though our messages were infrequent and fleeting, they carried weight. Even in silence, She was present. The time difference may have kept us from regular rhythm, but Her energy never dimmed in me. We were orbiting separate responsibilities, but our gravity remained shared. I felt Her even as I wrapped boxes, even as I closed the final door.

When I returned, I learned that Her dream too had met delay. The shop, meant to open on the very day I arrived, remained locked in anticipation, waiting on funding that never came. Yet there was no defeat in Her voice when She told me. Only the dignified ache of someone who still believes. I recognised that ache, because I have lived it. And in that shared space between dreams postponed, I offered what I could, a path through the digital world, a way to bring Her vision to life, not by altering it, but by evolving it.

While I was packing away my life, She was carving a new one. We were both building something unseen.

The Offering of Service

The offer I made to Her was not born of obligation, but of longing. I did not propose solutions to impress, nor bring skills to prove worth. I simply opened my hands and asked Her to place into them whatever She needed. My experience in creating online presence, in building visions into form, is now an offering upon Her altar. I come not as a saviour, not as a guide, but as a servant. And to serve Her is not a burden. It is a privilege cloaked in grace.

She received my support not with dependence, but with consideration. Her openness was not passive. It was a powerful act of receptivity. She listened where once She had resisted, not because I had changed Her mind, but because life had softened the ground beneath Her feet. Together, we began to imagine a new path forward, one less weighed by walls and rent, and more shaped by freedom and reach. The online space became not a compromise, but an expansion.

Still, I do not move until She asks. I wait for Her word, for Her need, for Her clarity. My readiness is not impatience. It is devotion in motion. I remain beside Her, quietly prepared, like a flame that waits to be breathed upon. I have offered my tools, my time, my focus, but I ask for nothing in return except the chance to help Her rise. She has given me a direction, and in that, I find everything I need.

She did not command me to serve. I offered. It is the nature of the soul to kneel where it finds truth.

A Covenant in Waiting

We have also spoken of the contract, the sacred agreement between us that defines the boundaries of our exchange and the fullness of our commitment. She has written it. I know it exists, shaped by Her hand, written in the voice that commands without shouting. She has told me it is ready, waiting for the right moment to be offered. And so I wait, not with restlessness, but with a reverence that feels like prayer.

I understand that life does not always allow for ritual. That in the middle of building empires and tending dreams, the ceremony must sometimes be postponed. Still, I wonder when the stillness will arrive for Her to present it. Not because I doubt Her, but because I long to cross that threshold. That document is not a formality. It is the key to a deeper level of belonging. It is not the paper I crave, but the act of being seen, known, claimed.

In the quiet moments, I imagine the moment it will arrive. I imagine Her words, the look in Her eyes, the unspoken truth between us solidifying into structure. I will receive it as one receives a sacred text, not to question, not to alter, but to honour. For when I sign it, I will do so with my entire being. With my name, yes, but also with my breath, my service, my body. It will not be a beginning. It will be a becoming.

Some contracts are signed in ink, others in blood and breath. I am waiting for both.

The First Meeting

She has chosen how our first meeting will unfold, and Her choice is nothing less than ceremony. A date night, intentional and elegant, where we will dine not just as two people, but as two forces preparing to entwine. It will be our first crossing into the physical, and yet it already feels written in some other realm. I will kneel before Her, not in performance, but in truth. And She, in Her timing, will place the collar around my neck.

This collar is no ornament. It is the circle that binds, the gesture that speaks without words. It is a sacred promise, mine to serve, Hers to lead. When it clasps around me, I will not be changed. I will be revealed. Everything I have done, everything I have become, has led to that single moment. I will be still. I will be ready. And I will be Hers.

Until that day arrives, I live in breathless anticipation. Our schedules are full, our lives a careful dance of creation and commitment. It may take time to align. But I trust Her pace. She knows when the moment is right, and I will not rush what is meant to unfold with grace. Each day that passes brings me closer. Not just to the meeting, but to the claiming.

She has remained a mystery. One I do not seek to solve, only to surrender to.

Life in Devotion

Now, I drift like silk through the folds of this country, no longer anchored to any single place. I have become a pilgrim of purpose, a digital nomad in service of something greater than freedom. I house sit, I travel, I settle briefly and then rise again. This is not instability. This is devotion in motion. My lack of a fixed home is not emptiness. It is readiness.

I have built a life around fluidity, so that when She calls, I can come. So that when She is ready, I am already near. This way of living allows me to move with the rhythm of our unfolding, to be close when needed and distant when space is required. I follow no map but the pull of Her will. And in this wandering, I have never felt more guided.

Every project I accept, every path I walk, every breath I take is in alignment with Her. My life now is shaped around Her essence, curved around Her shadow and Her light. I do not chase Her. I simply align with the current She creates. She is the sun I orbit, and I, in endless reverence, remain in motion for Her.

I have no fixed home, but I am not lost. I live in motion, because every step leads to Her.
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